shutting down

Aku baru je bukak blog aku balik nie, dan mendapat pelbagai respons mengenai post aku yang ter baru, oleh itu aku pon mereply semua post tue kat cni:

Thirah:
Aku tau macam ada x kene bile aku tulis Juliet of Orange, tapi malas nak check, bile fikir balik, aku salah pasal terpengaruh dengan William of Orange, tue yang terkonpius tue. Sape William of Orange? bukak balik buku sejarah.

Kerry:
Ahaha, as i said, nie bukan pasal tue je, things changed dan menyebabkan aku selalu berfikir yang bukan², thanks for the comforting words, appreciate loads

Harihaz:
X payah bitau, kitorg mmg tido berpelukan!


Tetiba, sesuatu menyambar (struck) minda aku, ade ke org baca blog aku nih?
Bile aku cek balik, mmg x berpaedah pon bende alah yang aku tulis,Update pon kurang, gamba pon tade...nulis je, bapak bosannye ....rasa x signifikan.


Macam sesumpah menyorok dicelah dedaun..ade, besar, leh nampak, tp x nampak pon tape!
So, aku rasa cam nak decide nak delete a.k.a shutdown blog nih...


Tapi, kat mana aku nak melampiaskan kegeraman dan kebencian yang dibakar oleh nafsu amarah yang bakal muncul tiba?
Kang ade la binawe memana yang membuat onar, x kan nak sound je, kene la kutuk belakang sekali kan? yang paling best kalu rerakan pon kutuk sekali onar tue, mmg la seronok x igt melihat permultiplyan kutukan yang dibuat..bulela aku tersenyum puas..malah kekadang tue kutukan diorg lebih kreatif dr kutukan aku sendiri? boleh la kite brainstorm untuk mendapatkan kutukan dan sumpahan terbaik yang perlu dijatuhkan kepada onar tue,,ye tak? Tapi setakat nie xde...*sigh

Kesimpulannya, aku mungkin gulung tikar

Quzzical

Nope, I wont review on Juliet of Orange
Just me whining about my life.
To be honest, im not in my best shape..
My mind clouded with many things, that at times disrupting my decisions making ability
I cant make a single decision because these are a whole new Environment/Experience to me
To make it harder my personal feeling hindering me to decide what is best for me now
Hell..i dont even know what is the best for me now..
When i was a student, i used to get back to my imaginary drawing board...in my brain
(I support paperless world..lets go green!)
I would list down all the pro and cons and decide from there
But now? Pros can be cons and vice versa
No concrete answer to the questions...
should i? would i? would they? is it ok for me? how long is ok is?
the lists are endless..im not a kid anymore, i would be hold responsible for
any decision that i make
Im upset in a way
Now, in the past 2 months
im hitting more sidemirrors than the whole 4 years of my exp riding motorcycle
almost involved in an accident 3 times..it has never happened before
My mind seems to be drifting at times
Distracted and distraught.
Beaches maybe good for me..
To flush all the clouds that shrouding my mind
Karambunai anyone?
but im glad that my parents and Angah is here to support me
you all rox!
Mimi that always understand me (and giving out loan too..hehe)
thanx a buch dear
Kerry, ija, tra and wina that i hogged them to hear me blabbering gibberish matters
u all scratched my back, ill return the favour
In the end..i dont know what the heck i write..
it is as quizzical as the title put it

dh berjanggut tunggu nih


i know..it is coming
but
WHEN???!!!!!


*updated:
*DAMN..have no mood no more to wait..
on what purpose??

just to damn me to an endless despair!!!
what a joke
did u hear me?..what a JOKE!!!